my new chapter in my life…
is starting to play out. no, i still dont have the answers to the questions i ask, but i do have doors that are closing, and even more that are opening. my heart is happy. my dad is home for a little bit, i am learning more things about my self and about how the Lord sees me. i am learning that He really does make everything good, and that everything…EVERYTHING make me more like Him. He takes my darkness that i have tucked away and brings them to light, and helps me learn whatever it is i need to learn. He loves me. He makes me happy, He is restoring my life and my joy. the past month has been hard, really hard, but He has made it worth it, and has brought an overwhelming peace to my heart. I tend to sometime focus on the not so good things in life, but that is over, time to focus on the good things, even good things hurt at some point…but like i said, it brings me closer to being more like Him. I have a peace with moving out of Greenville, no, i still am not set on where i am going, i just know a season has ended, and a new one is on its way. and i have options as to where i go and what i do, I have asked that doors that needed to be closed, are closed, and new ones open, and they have been, I have been watching alot of what is going on at MorningStar, and even when i am alone in my apartment watching and hearing and seeing the Lord move, it changes me. it makes my spirit come alive, and reminds me what it is really all about. and i long to be in that place again, i long to travel again, i long to meet new people, and get to know them, i was riding around a few weeks ago with a friend, talking about how everyone has a story, that makes them who they are, that makes them tick the way they do…like someone getting in a taxi, and tells the taxi driver to take them somewhere, to the taxi driver, its just another car drive, but to the person asking for the ride, it could be much bigger than just a ride, to the people that know the story of the person riding in the taxi, its bigger than just a taxi ride, we all have stories, i miss hearing them, and getting to know people. i am happy that there are new places i get to go, new people i get to meet, new stories i get to hear. new hearts i get to know. no, i dont know how this is going to happen, but i know it is going to happen, and that gives me hope. alot of things have been happening just in the last week, from a dream i had, to just sitting with my parents, and watching how they are with each other, to being around my brother and his wife, and their baby, to a text i got today, it all gives me hope. Hope that there are bigger things out there for me, maybe not bigger, just different..and its time to take a hold of the promises and the words of LIFE that have been spoken, and move on, and not dwell on the past and things that i cant fix and change, they all come out to good at some point, and it brings me closer to the next season. and that gives me hope. I am stoked on my new chapter. more than anyone will know. i am thankful for all that i have seen and learned in greenville, even more thankful for the people that have been with me while in greenville, that have seen me at my worst, and at my best, that have been there for me, and walked with me in my silly life. :) Greenville has been a good chapter.
my heart is full of hope love and joy in this time of my life.
